I just need to vent. i feel targeted. As a child i was abused by my dad for 4 years. in primary school my best friend died. many other people have died throughout my life. im 29. on November 22 i was 28 weeks pregnant with a long awaited baby boy. on this day i was also diagnosed with ALL +PH. ON the 24th nov 2008 my beautiful boy was delivred by ceasarian. he did amazingly well and even breathd on his own for 24 hours. He stayed in ICU for a few weeks but did so well so got moved to the fatening up section of the nursery. he was going to come home soon. such a heathy boy. i left him one night at about 930pm. at 4am in the morning i got phoned to come to the hospital coz riley was sick. i got there and was told he had a bowel condition (NEC)then 2 minutes later my darling had a heart attack and could not be revived.I watched the doctors do CPR for 30mins. my little boy died. he was 7 weeks old. i am so broken. i know God has a plan. it helps me to know that even though this is crap-God is in control. I cant find anyone who has lost child the same way or that has my type of cancer. i just want to know someone who knows a little of what im going through. what a life

Hello Emma

I see many people have viewed your posting but there have been no replies. I am sure everyone is incredibly saddened by your story and the death of your little boy Riley, it is very hard to find the words to help support you through this.

I would very much like to talk to you personally, or via e-mail, to see how you are coping, and to make sure you have all the support availble at this difficult time. My e-mail address is This email address is being protected from spam bots, you need Javascript enabled to view it , or you can ring on 1800 620 420.

We have great Support Service Coordinator's in all States including Victoria, and I really think you would benefit by talking with one of them person-to-person, they can come to you!

I am sure I am speaking for many when I say I hope you are finding the inner strength to cope with both your illness and your very sad loss.

Kindest Regards

Kendall

Im thinking of you - having a baby and a week later been told i had cancer was hard enough never mind going through what you have been through. My prayers are with you. xxxx

Im thinking of you - having a baby and a week later been told i had cancer was hard enough never mind going through what you have been through. My prayers are with you. xxxx

Dear Emma,
I am the mother of a child with ALL with B Cell abnormality. She is having a bone marrow transplant in about 3 weeks. I was told that the hardest thing I would go through as a mother would be to watch my child go through cancer. I am so sorry for your loss, I to believe everything happens for a reason however I fail to understand or comprehend any reasoning for your baby boy passing. I have watched my daughter over the past 5 months grow and change due to her experiences, and I only hope that you have a great support network around you and I also believe that you must be a very courages woman. Please keep in touch if you need to talk at all let me know. My prayers are with you.


Jojo

Emma,
I am so sorry for your loss. life is not easy but I hope you have people there to help you through this very hard time. I am a mother and was told about my cancer while pregnant.
Thinking of you
Gillian